I feel like exposing a little about myself today.. I feel like allowing myself to be a bit vulnerable..

But to lighten the mood somewhat, I think I’ll make this post like a compliment sandwich So here, I’ll start with the first piece of positive bread – I am living my dream. I may not be super rich, I may not be famous, but every day I wake up next to my love, healthy, and am able to thus far help to provide a roof over our heads by doing what I love which is making artwork for families.

Now for the hard to chew middle of my sandwich.. putting myself and my artwork, my inner creative voice, out there for the world to see and have my living depend on that has led to my self-worth becoming so intertwined with it, often making it incredibly difficult for me to separate the two. And by that I mean, if I have a good day and post some pretty pictures that lots of people ‘like’ on facebook or comment on, I feel great. If I get a letter back from a client telling me how much they love their photographs, I feel even better. I’m awesome, I’m on top of the world. I mean something and I feel like the world is rotating in just the right direction and at just the right speed. On the other hand, if I make a mistake in my business, or perhaps a series of images gets rejected for publication, I feel awful. I am a loser, and I could have (no, should have) done better. My artwork doesn’t matter, and what purpose is there to what I’m doing.. I am worth nothing.

Does this feeling at all resonate with you?

Anyway, I’m not sure what my point is in all of this except to say that if you feel this way too, I think it’s just normal. And I’m right there with ya, especially today.

With that being said, I’ll end with the second piece of positive bread – today I am alive and still living my dream.

Oh, and I just had the best breakfast at Lula Cafe.. yum. That place is the bee’s knees I tell ya.